The End of October 2012 .

Hi and assalamualaikum all. .
Yeah, it's reaching towards the end of this month for this year already. .
It is here now 11.10pm at Malaysia. .
Means only 50mins left before November take place. .
And alhamdulillah, though October had been quite a hard month for me, I manage to go through it successfully. .~^^
As for this the very end day of October, I just manage to present the hardest assignment for this semester in front of the class. .
Seriously, it was a big relieved !
And this is me before the presentation. . ~^^

This attire I wore for my presentation made me remember those foundation times. .
Sigh . .
And after that, everything went well. . .
I am so happy for that. .
As today is Wednesday, I have a night class. .
Have a snap before class ~ !

And just now at the night class, the lecturer was mistakenly thought that I want to ask a question as I actually raised my hand to call my friend. .
Okay, quite embarrassing at that moment, but I am okay with it. .
So basically, that's how today's going for me. .
For this upcoming November, there are a lot of thing await !
Assignments, tests, shooting and I don't even can remember it anymore. .
=__=
Let's just pray that it will be another month full of happiness and good memories. .
Goodbye October and say hello to November. .~ !
Have a nice November all. . ~^^
Till then, Farewell. .~

Saya Gembira. . ?

Hai dan assalamualaikum semua. .
Hai pembaca-pembaca saya, tak kisah lah setia ke tak. .
=P
Perasan tak akhir-akhir ni saya macam agak kerap update blog. .
Agak-agak kenapa lah kan. . ?
Sebab, tiba-tiba je rasa macam ada banyak cerita. .
Nah gambar satu !

Gambar ni diambil masa kat rumah petang tadi sebelum berangkat pulang ke UPM. .
tsk tsk. .
Sedih tinggalkan rumah. .
T_T
Sampai je UPM tadi terus ada discussion pasal presentation esok. .
Group saya semua Chinese, saya je Melayu. .
Tapi diorang baik. .
Saya terharu sangat sebab ada sorang tu sangat prihatin pasal saya. .
Entahlah, tatao macam mana nak gambarkan perasaan ni. .
Dia macam gembira yang amat sampai jantung rasa nak meloncat keluar dari jasad. .
Gembira sebab baru saya sedar ada orang yang sangat prihatin pasal saya. .
Rasa nak nangis pun ada. .
Bila kawan rapat lagi care pasal kita, perasaan tu agak lain. .
Tak sama dengan kawan alam maya yang setakat boleh tanya dan nasihat je. .
Walaupun role diorang macam lebih kurang, tapi perasaannya berbeza. .
Haa !
Yang care pasal saya ni perempuan okay ?
Jangan fikir macam-macam pulak tau . . ?
Konklusi di sini, sebenarnya ada je orang yang care pasal korang walaupun korang rasa forever alone gila. .
Saya cakap berdasarkan pengalaman. .
Hihi. .
Okay lah, saya nak sambung membaca info dalam keadaan gembira untuk presentation nanti. .
Doakan semuanya berjalan lancar okay ?
Terima kasih kawan-kawan. .
Sayang awak semua. .~^^
Selamat malam dan sampai jumpa lagi. .
Wassalam. .

Some Saying. . .~

To be yourself in front of the others, it would be great enough . .

There's no need to do something you don't like in order to satisfy someone . .

Never be afraid on voicing out your opinion in a crowd. . .

Love should come along with trust and loyalty . .

If you're the only one who cares too much in a relationship, leave . .

Sweet talk, laughs, jokes can be consider as only a manner to someone . . .

Don't easily fall for sweet talker . . .

Believe in actions, not words . . .

Jealousy is a normal thing, but don't go over the limits . . .

To be with CRUSH, it's a wish, not a hope. . .

When you in doubt, turn to Allah . . .

Let you be alone in this world, not in the hereafter. . .

~^^

Have a good day all. . 

Assalamualaikum. . .~

Till then, Farewell. . ~

Dia . .~

Dia yang satu ketika dahulu saya temui hanya selepas seminggu perkenalan di alam maya. . .
Dia yang satu ketika dahulu melamar saya dalam secara tidak langsung. . .
Dia yang satu ketika dahulu hilang menyepi diri tanpa khabar berita. . .
Dia yang satu ketika dahulu saya anggap seorang penipu. . . .

Kini dia hadir kembali merungkai semua persoalan. .
Kini dia hadir semula membawa bunga-bunga cinta yang pernah berputik satu ketika dulu. . .
Kini dia hadir kembali bersama kenangan indah yang pernah kami kongsi bersama. .
Kini dia hadir semula dalam hidup ini yang dah lama menanti. . . .

I smile all day long because of him. . .
I am not sure if this is what people called love. .
But if it is true, I hope it lead me to the halal way. . .
Be the one whom I can love in a halal way Dear You. .
As I don't want to lost in those silly couple world. . .

*memories shall never fade away*

Those Promises And Lies. . .

Hi and Assalamualaikum all. .
I don't know what to wish, whether it's morning or night or might even evening?
HAHA !
Okay well, this time of entry is about something I experienced in past which suddenly made me recall of it after reading my own post back then. .
Yes, I once post about him. .
Saying that he 'want' me. .
At that time, I could decide nothing as both of us still young. .
Not long after that incident, he disappeared. .
And this made me felt so horrible, felt cheated by so many times. .
After since that day, I kept calming myself on not to trust any guys or fall for them so easily. .
And yes, I managed to do so until now. .
In fact, I am still single but yet not to be available. .
Then, when I manage to recover from those pain up till now and had my normal life, he came back. .
Just out of sudden, out of nowhere. .
And I don't really know what to feel at that time.
Screaming? for sure. .
I am happy but yet, still confused. .
But then, I take the positive side of him in mine . .
I try to accept him, again. .
He gave me his new number. . .
Although it'd been so long for me since our last conversation, I can still remember his voice, exactly. .
And once he called me, the voice was not the same. .
And he can't even remember me. .
At last, I found out that the number he gave to me belong to others. .
Was it my mistake or him ?
I am so confused. .
Anyhow, it is a lesson. .
Sorry, but it's gonna be hard for me to trust you again. . .
MAN !
My English sucks . . !
Well, it'll end here. .
Till then, Farewell. . ~

Random Quotes From Me. .

" I don't have a romantic story to be told. . .

But I have my own story to be hold. . "

"Sometimes, sacrifice means nothing to the person we love the most. . ."

" Those happy faces we see. . .

Doesn't necessarily the same it seems deep in the heart. . ."

None of Yours. .

Hi and Assalamualaikum. .
Currently I am not really into any mood and that makes me want to write something. .
Suddenly, I was thinking about my late grandma after the Isya' prayer and this made me cry. .
Every time I think of her, my tears will fall down on the spot. .
This is because the feeling of being guilty towards her were still there, inside my hearts. .
Right at this moment, I just need someone to comfort me, which is my Mom. .
But apparently I have no enough credit to give her a call. .
And put the blame on those ATM machine which were not functioning for these past few days. .
I am a person who prefer to write down my feelings, rather then telling it to others. .
I did not convey it very well in a form of speaking as I might end up crying without even have a chance to talk. .
That's the reason why I am doing this entry right now. .
Right at this moment, I feel lonely. .
I want to cry out loud, but I can't . .
So I just let my tears fall down silently. .
that guilty feeling I bear, that I couldn't make to pay her a visit after I finished my foundation studies. .
How could I be so rude towards her when she kept thinking about me all the time?
How could I ? ?
Put the blame on me. .
Yeah, I know it's my fault of being too selfish although no one tell me this. .
She is my second Mom in this world. .
And now, I have nothing else to write. .
Let the tears calm me down. .
Nights all. .
Till then, Farewell~

Saya, Mereka dan Kami . .

Assalamualaikum dan hai semua. .
Dah dapat nak update blog ni buat saya rasa nak menangis. . !
Sebab banyak sangat memori yang dah tersimpan dalam otak ni tapi tak terluahkan dek banyak rintangan melanda. .
HAHA !
Ni lah masalah kalau dah banyak sangat cerita, sampai tatao nak cerita yang mana satu. .
Dan dah terlupa apa yang perlu diceritakan sebenarnya. .
Okay, mungkin saya patut mulakan dengan keadaan saya di UPM sekarang ni. .
Life kat UPM ni macam tu je lah kot. .
Takda naik turun sangat. .
Mendatar je. .
Kadang-kadang rasa bosan. .
Tengok kawan-kawan kat Uni lain buat saya rasa jealous. .
Haih !
Geram pun ada sebab saya tak dapat bersama mereka. .
Okay, nak cerita satu peristiwa di mana saya sesat menaiki bas pada waktu malam dan menyebabkan saya tidur di kolej lain. .
Nasib baik lah ada kawan kat kolej tu kan, kalau takde?
Tidur kat bustop lah nampaknya. .
T_T
Naik bas dari ktm Serdang pukul 10lebih, ingatkan bas tu lalu kat kolej serumpun(kolej saya), rupanya tak. .
Betapa cuaknya saat tu sampai seram sejuk badan ni ha. !
Nasib baik lah otak masih boleh berfungsi teringatkan kawan ada kat kolej 11 tu ha. .
Kalau tak, tatao la tidur mana. . >_<"
Balik lambat masa tu sebab pergi interview seorang cerpenis. .
Buntu idea kalau tak sediakan soalan awal-awal. .
Tapi cerpenis tu sangat baik sampai ambil saya dari DBP dan hantar saya ke KL Sentral. .
Actually hari tu saya tak keseorangan. .
Saya ditemani oleh seorang rakan baik saya sejak dari asasi lagi. .
Family saya pun dah kenal dia. .
Sampai ada yang salah anggap hubungan kami. .
Tolonglah paham. .
Haih. .
>__<"
Try nak upload gambar tapi tak boleh. .
So, tak ada gambar untuk entry kali ni walaupun sebenarnya banyak yang saya nak tunjuk kat korang semua. .
:(
Dan sekarang nak sambung cerita lain. .
Kebelakangan ni saya sibuk dengan urusan luar, sebab tu tak ada banyak masa nak update blog ini mahupun novel. .
Ditambah lagi dengan keadaan internet yang tak berapa nak mesra dengan keadaan saya kan ?
>_<"
Dan nak cerita pasal semalam pulak. .
Semalma saya jumpa semula keluarga LWA02A saya !
Rindu sangat dekat diorang walaupun saya selalu dijadikan bahan. .
=__=
Walaupun tak semua ada, tapi still terubat lah jugak rindu di hati ni. .
Menjadi rakyat minoriti di mana saya seorang je yang ada kat UPM ni buat saya rasa kecil, tak boleh nak kongsi pape pun. .
Untunglah diorang ambil law, boleh bertelagah pasal law sesama sendiri. .
Saya ambil komunikasi, dijadikan bahan bahawa saya akan jadi wartawan yang terkenal satu hari nanti. .
Tapi saya tak minat jadi wartawan. .
Mungkin ada dalam kalangan mereka yang akan terbaca entry ni, maaf kalau saya buat korang terasa. .
Rasa nak menangis ni dipendam je. .
Bila nak terluah tatao lah. .
Masa peluk kawan saya, Farah, memang nak nagis time tu. .
Tapi saya tahan sebab tak nak dijadikan bahan oleh dua lelaki . . . . . . . . .
Penat tao dijadikan bahan, tao tak ?
Okay, nak alih cerita sebab malas dah nak ulas lebih lanjut tentang hal ni. .
Tadi page settle kan hal ptptn dan kena cucuk buat kali kedua untuk hpv. .
Pergi Bukit Ekspo sebab ada pameran pertanian. .
Pegang kuda, tengok macam-macam. .
Maaf, saya dah tak ada mood. .
Wassalam. . .~

Nowadayds Life. . .

Assalamualaikum and hi readers. . .
^__^
Yeah. .
It's October now. .
Times do travel fast, isn't it ?
Well, let see what happened for this quite sometimes. .
As you were told in my previous entry, I am now a degree student. .
And it is not an easy life to go on with. .
To go on successfully, you must have a strong heart. . !
I knew this thing like, "you're still young, you haven't experienced this and that again. ."
Yes, I do admit that the older you get, the more experienced you gain. .
But at the same time, you shouldn't say those thing like we, the younger, could not have the same experienced as yours. .
I may seem innocent and younger than you, but trust me, I do experienced some of the bittersweet of this life as same as yours. .
So, never expect it was just a joke !
I am totally pissed off when someone making fun of me when I am being serious. .
If you're never placed on my shoes, you'll never know how it really feel to be me. .
So shut up and listen !
I know that I'm a bit emotional this time. .
But, what to do. .
I am way so tired and all the feelings were just mixed up. .
Oh man, feel like exploding !
BOOM !

So my nowadays life can be said as a busy night person. .
Cause I can relaxing on the daylight for almost everyday. .
But ! Getting a busy life on the night as in I have to go everywhere for every night. .
Sigh, I knew this sounds tiring. .
But this is my choice. .
So, I have to deal with it. .
I want to be a student who success or at least have a good achievement in both academic and curriculum activities. . .
^__^
Here, as the first year student, most of us are depending on the bus provided. .
Feel like a cramped tuna in the bus is a normal thing I can say. .
It is so hard to see these people (including me) lining up to go to the bus. .
We hold onto a policy which is "the first man get the sit" . .
For the guys, I suggest you not to be a gentleman on this kind of situation or you're totally out !
YEAH !
There's no mercy when going on the bus. . .
Muahahahha ! *evil laugh*
So I guess thats it for now. .
I'll write some more later. .
Oh ! By the way, I just got free YES modem and I'm onl;ine using it right now. .
Enjoy !
Till then, Farewell. . ~

*I love calm place like this*