PAST vs FUTURE

          Hai dan assalamualaikum. Lama dah tak update dalam bahasa kebanggaan, Bahasa Melayu. Saja je tulis tajuk dalam English, bikin gempak. HAHA! Maaf kepada yang tertipu. >_<" Harini, dari twitter ke facebook, saya asyik mengadu, "macam mana nak melangkah ke masa hadapan kalau sesuatu dari masa lalu tak berhenti mengahntui saya?" Macam mana saya dapat ayat ni? Kalau anda baca entri saya yang sebelum ni, saya ada sebut pasal tiga lelaki yang saya dah berjaya letakkan di masa lalu untuk selamanya. Tapi tanpa diduga, salah seorang dari mereka tiba-tiba hadir semula dalam hidup saya. Kenapa? Kenapa?! Kalau dia cuma hadir sebagai kawan, insya-Allah saya boleh terima. Tapi ini tidak, mengharapkan cinta yang tak pasti dari saya sampai sanggup tinggalkan perempuan yang sayangkan dia. Sesungguhnya saya keliru. Saya masih terluka dan saya sedar saya juga banyak melukakan hati orang lain. Oleh itu, tolonglah bagi saya ruang dan peluang untuk sembuhkan luka-luka ini.Haih. . .

         Saya akui saya bukanlah seorang perempuan yang sempurna. Saya sedar kekurangan diri saya. Makanya saya katakan tidak untuk sebarang perhubungan percintaan pada waktu yang terdekat ini. Saya dah cukup terluka. Kepercayaan penuh yang diletakkan pada Si Dia yang dihancurkan dengan begitu sahaja tanpa sebarang alasan, perempuan mana yang boleh terima. Tapi saya tak salahkan dia, mungkin dia tak dapat terima kekurangan saya. Kata orang, terima orang yang sayangkan kita sebab dia akan jaga kita dengan lebih baik. Ya, mungkin betul. Dah lah, saya malas sangat nak fikir pasal benda-benda ni buat sementara waktu. Saya harap sesiapa yang terluka akibat hubungan yang terjalin antara saya dengan Si Dia dulu bahagia. Kini, saya bahagia sendiri, hidup bersama hanya keluarga dan rakan. Moga kalian semua dirahmati Allah dan bahagia dunia akhirat. Amin. Off to sahur right now. Wassalam~

My Journey in Busan. #12 #13

                    Hi and assalamualaikum. Yeah, I know that I wrote nothing yesterday. It was because I do nothing much. Just resting in my room for almost the whole day. But somehow, I met someone from UM yesterday. She came late but she already heard about me coming here all alone. HAHA!

Next is about what happened today. I went to Nampo-dong. It’s a market where you can buy souvenirs at affordable price. I've been there before, during the city tour. This time, I went with Ah-Reum. And we explored more than what I did last time. Kinda regret cause I found the same thing at cheaper price. Haish. So, what did we do today? First, go by subway and she led me to the wrong station. HAHA! Luckily she noticed that earlier. Then, back on the right track and went to Nampo-dong. Kind of shocked cause the street was quite empty I can say. It’s weekend and it’s empty. My assumption was, “maybe they go to Seoul for a better shopping.” Well, few of my friends did go to Seoul. Why am I not going there? Simple answer. I want to save up money. Hihi. First, we went to some clothes store and the price is affordable, I can say. But you have to choose wisely. That’s it. Then we go to a store called BoDa. Here is more like a stationary shop. Went here because Ah Reum wants to buy birthday card for her friend. The shop is nice, look elegant and price starting also at reasonable price. Feel free to visit here.~^^ Then we went to a coffee shop. I don’t know why am I so dizzy out of sudden at that time. Take time to rest there. After some times, we go out to the department store cause Ah-Reum said that she wanted to buy new clothes. Well, I just tag along. The design is really nice, I can guarantee. It’s only matters of how long or see-through the clothes are to me. Sigh. In the end, Ah-Reum bought nothing cause according to what she said, it’s cheaper if she just buy it online for the same brand. Then we go to the food section cause she’s searching something for her dinner. All I can do just controlling myself. Hew hew. .~ Then we go out to the street after she bought her dinner. After almost 30mins of walking around the street, I finally bought some souvenirs and can finally found “I Love Korea” t-shirt for my dad. J The prices of the t-shirts vary, starting from 4,000KRW. And it’s finally time for filling my stomach with food. J We went to a self-cook tteobokki restaurant. It was nice. We add on some cheese and ramyeon as topping. Nyum nyum~^^ It is really delicious. At first I wonder what was the function of the pipe and it turn out to be the source of mineral water. They have it at each table. Fascinating? J The price for the tteobokki meal of 2 with add on cost us 9,500KRW which mean it only cost each of us 4,250KRW. A very affordable price I can say. J Finished the meal and get home directly. It was so nice of Ah-Reum for accompanying me till the dormitory. Though she have to like taking the subway back and forth, she willing to accompany me. Really big thanks to you. Unnie, saranghaeyo. J Well I guess, that’s all about my journey today~^^

*Nampo station*

*Nampo-dong street*

*BoDa store*

*CUTE!*

*cards*

*Just statue along the street*

*interior design of Roasting house*

*Americano*

*Coffee shop; Roasting House*

*Nampo department store*

*Take this escalator to get there*

*See that water?*

*It's coming from here*

*Ah-Reum's dinner*

*stove*

*mineral water*

*Wear this before you eat guys~^^*

*Sleeping? :D*

*Before we cook*

*cheese*

*Ah-Reum, are you cooking? O_o*

*add cheese and close it*

*some souvenirs*

[p/s: Finally made it to skype with my family after few days they didn’t come online. I really miss Malaysia. L]

            Off topic. Though you might see that I was enjoying my time here, I also silently hurt. I guess that now all three of my past has finally stayed there. All three of them get hurt. Two of them decided to back off and I pushed away the other one. I am so sorry for what have I done. I believed that all of you will have a nice life and get a better partner. I’m a heart-breaker but I am also heartbroken. Call me whatever you want; selfish, cruel or even an egoistic person, I don’t mind. Cause somehow, I admit that it is true. And I need it to keep on living and moving on from my past. I might hurt you unintentionally or intentionally, but I’m hurting inside too. I am so sorry. Insya-Allah, all three of you will always be in my prayer as I will always consider you as my friend though we’re not communicating anymore. I am so sorry. L Even come to think of it right now make my heart ache.  Till then, Farewell~

My Journey in Busan. #11

         Hi and assalamualaikum. I just got back. .! ! ! And for sure, I am so tired. . Where did I go? Stay tune. J So today I feel like an artist in the morning class. I wear baju kurung today. At first, I asked my friend to help me take picture with the lecturer. And after that, the Thailand guys slowly want to take picture with me. . Quite few pictures were taken. .~^^ So, the reason why I wore buju kurung today was because of the presentation on the afternoon class. As for me, I think it is one of the worst presentations I ever did. I don’t know why and don’t really want to talk about it. But what I know is, they look kinda amazed seeing me with baju kurung. At least that is what I feel as they keep complementing me. J Finished with the classes, and now time for some entertainment! ! Around 7pm, Me, Hye Jin and Bo Ram went to Gwanganli Beach. Bus and subway (go) and subway and taxi ( back ). J The journey took around an hour. Well, the beach is so beautiful. I even walk on the sea shore. J Before that, we had our dinner at oven chicken baked. We tried the chicken lasagne. It is so nice. I was touched by their concern about what I cannot eat. Really thanks to them. Only after that we have a walk around the beach. Sightseeing, walking, snapping, writing name on sand and also running, we did it. The smell of the beach really attracts me. I just love the smell. It’d been too long since my last time visiting any beach/sea. After that, we went to the amusement park. After take a look at several games, I decided on King Viking. I was laughing very hard as we’re riding it cause the effect is on my stomach. I laugh until my tears come out. I’m not scared but it feels like my soul was left behind every time we’re at the peak point going down. HAHA! My palm was sweating and I was thinking what if something like in the Final Destination happened? HAHA! :P After the ‘thrilling’ Viking, we tried a shooting game? I don’t know the name but it’s the game where there is a gun and you just shoot the zombies until they die. Ohh, my hands were tired because of that. But it was fun. J Last before we go back, we went to A Twosome Place, which is a place well known with the desserts and coffee. So we tried this one Yogurt Berry Ice Shaved and it was really nice. It’s like an ABC in the Malaysia but have this Western touch in it. It cost us about 9,800 KRW for one big bowl. Well said, well done. I am satisfied enough. J We’re rushing at that time actually cause we’re going for the last train. We’re running and it does looks funny to me. With the stairs some more. . Aigoo, it’s tiring. But it’s okay as I have so much fun today. . Friends, thank you again for these beautiful memories we creates together. J I guess that’s it for today’s story. Till then, Farewell~^^

*Morning class lecturer*

*With Sun, Thailand guy*

*With Thailand guys*

*with Ah-Reum*

*With Julia*

*Ah-Reum recommended this to me*

*Sera unnie in hanbok*

*First subway station I went in Korea*

*us~^^*

*at Naengjeong subway station*

*inside?*

*oven baked chicken*

*outside view from inside*

*chicken carbonara*

*Gwanganli*

*Hye Jin and Bo Ram*/

*(1) Boram wrote my name*

*(2) love was added*

*(3) she add the 'welcome' word*

*guess what is it*

*amusement park*

*taga disco*

*My viking ticket*

*Did you see me there?*

*The shooting game I mention earlier*

*the desserts*

*last pictures of the day using my tab*