Wednesday 28 September 2011

aku ke kau. . ?

Aku rasa hari ni la first time aku rasa tension yang teramat sangat terhadap kawan. . !
aku pun tatao la. .
aku ke dyorg yg salah sebenarnya. .
Aku selalu diabaikan oleh mereka seolah-olah aku ni halimunan. . 
memang diorang je yg wujud skrg ni. . 
Pergi makan ta pernah nye nak ajak aku, pergi study pn ta pernah ajak aku. . 
Kadang2 aku sampai ta makan or terpaksa makan sorg. .
Sadis ta. .?
Tadi, diorang pergi library lagi. .
Ta d nye pn na tye aq. . 
Da agk da yg dyorg memg ta akan tye. .
Fine, tak kisah lah kan. . 
Tadi balik da petang, lantaklah kan. .
aku puasa hari ni. . 
Mase tu da na time berbuka. .
Dyorg punye penat je dyorg pk. . 
Aku nye pent. . .?????!!
So atas alasan tu dan aq yg bersemgt na bli mkanan,dyorg minta tolong aq tok belikan. . 
Aku angin la!
Ape lg. . 
Huh!
Aq na cbut tetbe dy pggl, na pesn. .
Dlm keadaan agk mrh aq jwb la , " Eiysh! korang ni. .! sms la"
Then aq pn blah. .
Bila aq da agk reda, aq msg dy tye na pesn ta. .
Dy ta blas. .
Aq miscall dgn tanggapan maybe dy ta dgr ad msg. .
Still ta brbalas lg. .
Aku msg lagi sekali. . 
Baru dy rep kali ni. . 
"Tak payah. kita pergi beli sendiri. "
Membaca msg tu membuat aq tersentap dan hati aq berdetik mengatakan dyorg marah kt aq. . 
Aq da start rase bersalah. . 
After consult ngan kawan aq, aq akhirnye msg dyorg utk minta maaf n aq suh dyorg abaikan aq. . 
Aq mengaku aq nangis bila cerita hal ni kat ibu aq n seorg kwn aq yg lain. .
Dyorg masih ta tegur aq sampai sekrg n aq pn wat lah hal aq sendiri seperti biasa dlm blik ni. . 
Esok aku ad exam, last paper. .
Aq admit once again aq taleyh na focus study. . 
Maybe aq akn stdy suk. . 
ni je yg aq na luahkan utk entry kali ni. . 
Maybe aq yang salah. . 
Kalau betul aku salah, aku da minta maaf. . 
Okay all, we shall meet on the next entry. . 
><"

Sunday 25 September 2011

tension seketika. .

Huh. .!
Fine, aku memg tension seketika hari ni sewaktu sebelum exam. .
Bukan tension sebab na exam, tapi tension sebab tiba-tiba ex aku call. .
Kalau call setakat na tanya khabar tape la juga, ni call sebab na minta tolong aku belikan dia mp3. .
What the hell man!
Kan, aku yang jarang sebut perkataan seumpama itu telah pun mengeluarkannya. .
sigh. .
Sekarang, proses menenangkan diri semula. .
Please la, tayah na guna alasa sangat na minta tolong semua. .
At the end, both of us know yang kau na jumpa aku. .
tapi maaflah, aku tana jumpe kau. .
Okay. .
Lets forget about that. .
Sekarang ni tengah kemas-kemas untuk pulang ke Kluang sesudah habis exam nanti. .
Buat aku makin ta sabar na balik lax. .
Aku balik naik bas nanti. .
Na tao dengan sape. .
Nanti aku post the whole story. . ^^
Well, na habiskan kemas ni. .
Pas tu, study. .
adesh. . !
=.="
Okay all, we shall meet on the next entry. .
Dadaa. . . !

Saturday 24 September 2011

being fool again. .

Huh. .!
Am I a fool. . ?
Am I so naive. . ?
How come I can be fool over again too easily. . ?
Or I just didn't learn from the previous lesson. . ?
What should I do. .
Make my temperature higher. . !
Okay, for now, just forget bout it. .
I have a paper this evening. .
Need to calm myself. .
Ok, we shall see later. .
Dadaa. . !

Friday 23 September 2011

kehairanan. . . !

well. .
Aku kempunan bubur ayam dari semalam sebenarnya. .
Di sebabkan waktu aku kempunan tu dah malam, so aku beli bubur segera je. .
=.="
Rasa yang masih ta menghilangkan kempunan aku itu. .
Huh!
Then, aku akhirnya tadi telah makan bubur ayam di McDonald.  .!
yeay!^^
Dapat la juga menghilangkan kempunan tu. .
And aku ditemani seseorang. .
Lelaki. . ^^
Haha. .
He was so sempoi. . !
Amat best keluar dengan dia. . ^^
Masa aku da habis makan bubur, aku call my Mom. .
Then, heard his voice. .
Mak aku ingat pakwe aku pula. .
Pulak dah. . !
=.="
Tiba-tiba mak aku kata, "kirim salam kat dia. ."
Say what. . ?!!!!!
Terkejut kot. .
Selama ni, nak balas salam dari Ex aku pun mak aku teragak-agak. .
Yang dia pula leh kata "calon menantu". .
Huh. . ?!
Ok fine. .
Inilah kehairanan yang aku nak utarakan sebenarnya. .
Bila aku tanya my Mom kenapa kirim salam kat dia, but tak pernah nak kirim salam kat mana-mana kawan lelaki aku sebelum ni. .
Then, she just laughed. .
okay. . .
Kehairanan. . . .. . . .
okay all. . .
till we meet again at my next entry. . 
we shall meet later. . ^^
Dadaaa. . . ^^

Monday 19 September 2011

An important day without an important person by my side. .

Salam. . . .
Today, I'll be sitting for my final exam paper. .
How important this day to me as it can affect my life if I didn't do it well. .
Before this, when I'll be sitting for an exam, Mom will always be by my side. .
It was such a compulsory for me to seek for his bless, ask her to pray for my success, kiss and hug her. .
How I miss being with her. .
T_T
But today, I'll sit for an exam without her by my side. .
I can't hug her. .
I can't kiss her. .
The only thing I can do is call her. .
I wish Mom were here to tell me that everything gonna be okay and wish me to do my best. .
Her advice will always be my guide. .
Now, as I was too far from her, can call her using the phone is more than enough for me. .
I hope I can do well in my final exam which start today. .
And, I wish good luck to all my friends which face the same situation as I am now. . ^^
We shall meet again later. . ^^
Wassalam. .
Dadaa all. . ^^
^_^

Friday 16 September 2011

Rintihan Seorang Hamba. . .

Ya Allah. . .
HambaMu ini menangis lagi. .
HambaMu yang hina ini amat memerlukan bantuanMu, Ya Allah. .
HambaMu sedar betapa kerdilnya hambaMu ini di sisiMu wahai Ya Allah. . .
HambaMu ini merasa bahawa dia telah bawa bayak kesusahan kepada keluarganya. .
Kali ini, hambaMu ini tidak mahu menyusahkan keluarganya lagi. .
Ya Allah, Kau bantulah HambaMu ini dalam mengharungi dugaan hidup ini Ya Allah. .
Hanya itu yang hambaMu ini inginkan. .
Petunjuk dan rahmat dariMu Ya Allah. .
Sekian. . .
Wassalam. . . .

I'm sorry Mom.. .

I have a problem. . 
I call my mom with thought of telling her my problem. . 
But, knowing that she really worry about me, I don't have the heart to tell her my problems. . 
I don't want to give her such a burden anymore. .
But then, I think again. . 
If I'm not going tell her about my problem, who else would help me. . ?
Then, I came out with my second thought. . 
Just let me bear all the pain and misery alone by myself. . 
I don't want to burden anyone. . 
Just let me torture myself. . 
I such a troublemaker. . 
Mom. . . 
I'm sorry. . 
I know you worried about me as we are far apart from each other. . 
I admit that my life here not good as when you're by my side . . . .
But I just don't want you to keep thinking about my condition over here as you need to take care of others too. . 
Mom, just let me keep this problem for a while. . 
I'll tell you once I think it's the right time to tell you. . 
I love you so much mom. . . 
<3 <3 <3
we shall meet again later. . 
Dadaaaa. . .! ! !

Monday 5 September 2011

i don't know. .

I don't know what exactly happening in my mind now. .
I am studying just now, but my mind for sudden remember something in the past. .
I myself don't know why. .
Maybe because someone had just been asked to watch my words because it might hurt the feeling of people around me. .
I don't know. .
I just say it as a joke, but he maybe can't take it or it might seem too harsh for him. .
I already said sorry to him, and he said never mind. .
But my hearts keep telling me that he actually still hurt by my words. .
Huh!
Thinking about that make me feel uneasy and can't focus well in doing my revision. .
I don't know what I should do now. .
And I suddenly had a fever today. .
That make my mind messier. .
I just thought of something that I would do in order to watch my words. .
I want to be a passive girl. .
Do you guys think its a wise decision. .
Huh!
I think my entry this time end here. .
Dadaa. . !
We shall meet again later. .
=.="

Sunday 4 September 2011

perosak betul lah. . .! !

Haiysh. . . .!
Apakah yang berlaku. .
Huhu. .
Meh, ni aku na cerita ni..
Hum. .
Aku amatlah "perosak" hari ini. .
Nak tao kenapa...
Inilah kisahnya. . . . . .
Hari ni aq janji ngan seorang kawan nak keluar tgok movie. .
Tggu lah bas, tapi tak ada...
Then aq call lah taxi sruh amek. .
Tak lame lepas tu, dtg lah taxi dan aq pun naik lah. .
Dalam perjalanan na menuju ke tempat yang dijanjikan, tiba-tiba Pak Cik Taxi yang aq call td call aku..
Aku pn pelik la. .
Rupanya aq naik salah taxi. .
Kesian kat Pak Cik Taxi tu. .
Huhu
T_T
Then, dah sampai tempat yang dijanjikan. .
Tapi aq lambat sebenarnya. .
Di sebabkan itu kami tertinggal bas utk ke destinasi seterusnya..
Aku lah perosak itu. .
huhu >>again<<
Setelah lama menunggu bas yang ta kunjung tiba, akhirnya kwn aq memutuskan utk naik taxi. . (apalah, dari awal tana cdgkan! )
Sampai di sana, kami terus ke panggung. .
huh!
Tak dapat tengok movie sebab tikat paling awl pkul 9 dan ke atas. .
So, ta jadilah tengok movie. .
Sebab sape...? ? ?
Aq lagi. .
#sigh
Then, agenda seterusnya ialah makan., .
Dah pesan makanan dah, dah bayar, tapi lupa na amek resit. .
Disebabkan itu aq tak dpat makan. .
actually bukan lupa na amek resit, tapi akk tu yg ta bg aq resit. .
Bila claim balik, dia kata dah bg. .
Apalah. .
Kawan aq yang rasa kasihan tengok aq dengan murah hatinya pergi membeli set yang sama utk aq. .
Huwaaaa, terharu aq tao. .
Credit to him. .^^
Sedang dia beratur menunggu giliran utk membayar makanan tersebut, tiba-tiba peniaga tersebut memanggil aq dan offer nak bg aq mkn free je. .
Dek kerana rasa terhutang budi dekat kawan aq tu, aq pn tak amek la. .
Hihi. .^^
Last thing i spoiled today is when it is the time to get back to the college. .
Aq da tao da pintu gate seksyen 7 tu tutup pagi tadi dan hanya dibuka esok, tapiu entah bagaimana aq leyh terlupa and sruh drebar taxi tu hantar kat situ. .
Akibatnya, tambang yang sepatuntnya RM8 jadi RM14. .
Haiysh! ! !
Duitku melayang terbang. . .~
Huhuhuhuhu
Inilah perkara-perkara yang menyebabkan aq jadi perosak hari ini. .
haih!
ok. . .
i think this is it for today again entry. .
huhuhu. .
we shall see again later. .
>.<"

i'm back. .! ! !

huwaaaaa! ! !
I already in my room at my college in my university at Shah Alam that far away from my hometown in Johor. .
huh!
#sigh
The holiday given was totally not enough for me to spend more time with my beloved family. .
The time seems run too fast. . !
I still miss my bed and my bears at home. .
Thinking about being in University again. .
Huh!
What a tragedy!
Need to go to class, need to do assignment, need to do that, need to do this. .
Haih. . !
All of this thing can really drive me crazily stress. .!
Huhuhu. .
I already start missing my family. .
They just left me here moments ago. .
I want to follow them back to Johor. . ! ! !
But, what can I do. .
I must stay here. .
And face a TEST tomorrow. .! ! ? !
What. . ?!
Haven't do any revision yet. .
What should I do. . .?! !
>>go study la. . .
Me. .?
Study. .?
At this time. .?
Totally not me. .
haha
Erm, maybe later. . ^^
Ok guys. .
I think I'll stop here. .
We shall meet again on my next entry. .^^
Have a nice week. . ^^
Dadaaaaa..! ! !